And a ton of wasted effort. I weighed in this morning at a whopping...
Wow. I spent hours telling myself how I would recover from a gain and I would not reverse all the progress I'd made. I was really in a down place. Maybe next time I'm feeling down I will have a little more faith in myself and the work I put in. I don't have to be 100% to make progress. Maybe 80% is a wholesome way to reach a far off goal like this.
In the month of June, I have lost 4 more pounds. That brings my grand total to 20 pounds lost. That is 1/5th of my goal!!! That is huge! I tried to think back to the last night I know I weighted 220. I called my OB to find out what my starting weight was when I went in with my first pregnancy. I was thinking that I might have finally lost all the "baby" weight. Turns out I was 230 at my first OB appointment. I've lots all the baby weight from both of my pregnancies. Woohoo!
Thinking further back, it was at some point while I was on weight watchers. That was the mark where my points dropped and I began to falter. I also was finishing up grad school, learning how to exercise (still working on that one) and trying to figure out how to live with my husband. I remember because at 40 pounds lost back then, people really started to notice that I was losing weight. At Christmas that year, I got a ton of complements and was happy to find that I could wear XL shirts.
I remember thinking back then that I was the smallest my husband had ever known me. Today I am again the smallest since I found my guy. I'm smaller than when I graduated from undergrad. Smaller than when I was hired... and subsequently laid off... from my first 'real' job.
The best part is that I'm doing this without some of the negative methods I employed last time. No cigarettes. No Diet Coke. No artificial sweeteners at all in fact. And I'm already exercising regularly. Last time at 220 I started exercising.
This month will be a big month for me. Continued success means that I'll have beaten the wall I came up against 6 years ago. That and I might have to try to obtain my college student health services records to figure out my measurements back then. Lots to look forward to!