Yeah!!!! Woohoo! Go Margot! It's your birthday! Have a party!
I am thrilled! Hesitantly thrilled but thrilled nonetheless. That number came as a bit of a surprise this morning. I was hoping for 225. After moving to calorie counting, I was more than a little concerned that my process would be found lacking against the proven system that is Weight Watchers. Really I was a lot worried. Today I know that worry is unfounded. There is no one tool for success.
The biggest plus is that I like counting calories more than I do counting points. The first time I did WW I knew the formula well enough to guesstimate points from calories. The new point system has a much more complicated formula. And many restaurants only offer calorie counts on their foods these days which have no place in the new formula. I was finding that very frustrating. Switching to calories fixed that. I only have to add and the number is increasingly available.
My hesitation comes from the constant fear that this isn't real and the weight will return. I'm not sure if that fear will ever go away. I may reach my goal and always feel a 100 lb weight following behind me waiting to reunite. That might be the trade off for going through this process. By succeeding I know what both side feeling like. I won't ever be an blissfully ignorant skinny person. This person who had a 100 lb weight loss goal will always be here.
That's not such a bad thing, but it is one more thing to consider along my way. Learning to celebrate these losses is hard. I should be over the moon with excitement for the progress I'm making. And I am! Sort of. There's just more to it. I guess there will always be more to it.
My total weight loss since May's weigh in is 6 pounds. Since my first weigh-in in January my total weight loss is 16 pounds. That averages out to 0.72 pounds per week, or 3.2 pounds per month, for this year. I like the 3.2 pounds per month number. It is solid progress, but definitely not too quick. The slower progress gives me a little more hope that this is real. I am making permanent changes in my life, ones that I can stick with forever. Go me! :)